edmariec@gmail.com
11-17-2008, 09:58 AM
I've been feeling down a lot lately. I think its coming from how I feel my husband sees me now. I'm usually an active person and have an athletic built, but now that I'm into my 2nd trimester, the weight gain has tremendously picked up and, although, its part of the beauty of being pregnant, I feel that I'm not quite seeing myself attractive cos my husband doesnt seem to see me that way anymore. He's not a shallow person and he's extremely excited about the baby, but I feel that he has already started to look at me as his child's mother and not as a wife. I'm excited to be a mom and i cant wait for my little one to come out, but at the same time, my marriage and my relationship to my husband as his wife is also important for me. WE only have a 5 months left of just being the two of us and I want to cherish every moment of it, but i feel that he has lost interest on every romantic aspects of our marriage. He's a great provider and he gives me what I need, but I feel that he no longer sees me attractive as a wife, but just as a life source....I've tried to do things for the two of us, but at some point i'd also like to feel special and want him to plan special things....I'm usually open to him about things, but with all my emotions going out of whack, i cant seem to really say what i want him to know....Thinking about it makes me cry and although, i'm excited for our growing family, i feel that a family starts with the husband and wife.